Thursday, April 23, 2009
For weeks now, I have been contemplating about going home for a vacation. I don't think its going to be possible since things are getting bad and the economy is not looking to good. Just yesterday Ralph called to inform me that 20 cops will be laid off and a months leave without pay is going to be enforced on all cops. That got me really worried about Ralph's job and our finances. We are not rich, we just make ends meet. My decision not to go home is the right thing to do. My heart is aching to go home and see my family but my brain is telling me to wait and think first. I don't want to force the situation and put my families finances here in limbo. Its really really hard for me, Ralph feels so bad about this and worries that I wont love him anymore. Life is about tough choices and sacrifices. I know one day when the time is right we will be able to go back for a visit, but its not the right time. For now I'll just make do with talking and seeing my family through the eyes of the web cam, that is better than nothing.