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Wednesday, August 13, 2008


It was 30 years ago that a beautiful young mother welcomed her second child to the world. She describes the infant like snowhite :
hair as black as night
lips red as a rose and
skin as white as snow
The infant joined a family consisting of a man,a woman and a sibling. This people are no stranger to her,they became her lifeline,her safety net and source of joy. Little did she know that it was about to change. The family she once thought was strong ,was slowling crumbling before her eyes. Closing her eyes to the truth was not an option, she had to open them and saw how he left. She could not undertand why from a family of 4 they had become 3. Crying and praying day and night she did a lot, even resorting to calling out his name in a big jug to come home. Every birthdays she waits and hopes to see a familiar face once again only to have her hopes dashed as every sun sets in the horizon. She question why, she tries to make it easier for herself. She was in denial. For years she would pray for him to come back and make them whole again, keeps hoping but hopes can only last for so long. Until one day she woke up with a smile in her face. Accepting the fact that a 3 was ok lifted her up and gave her a new prospective look on life.
Moving on was her next step,with that she learned, to embrace the present and let go of the past, memories started to fade. Connecting to a once broken bridge was done and again she was subjected to this past hurt she had tried to bury. One question was asked from her
do you miss him?
A simple answer was all she could say : "no"
"how do you miss someone you dont know?"
She saw Him again but in a different light, do you know what she saw ?
Her papa,how can she call him that? Since his absence time has changed what was in her heart,he lost and became a father. The papa she once knew no longer exist. Thankful for his part in creating her she is grateful for that. All praise and love flows abundant to the waterfalls of a mother's love. I will forever love you my mother.
As for The MAN , he is my FATHER. I know him but yet he is a stranger. And that is why he is :


Which one are you ?

I Myself prefer being a night owl. I just hate waking up early in the morning where its cold, the sun is shinning in your eyes and i don't know,maybe I'm just staying up to late,lol...My step dad however is a morning bird. No matter what time he sleeps at night he always wakes up early in the morning and take note,he is not a grouch in the morning..For my mum,sister and myself we prefer the night. My mum would stay up until the wee ours of the morning cleaning,doing stuff or making fashion accessories. Basically my sister and I are the same. I like the stillness and the privacy the night offers. I feel i can do more and nobody is interrupting what I'm doing hence,making work faster and quicker.The cover of night allows my thoughts to go wonder about and i can talk to myself and not worry that someone might hear and think I'm crazy. I guess its my own way of connecting to myself and allowing time to just sway around me.When I'm up at night i don't feel and sense the urgency of time.Its as if time has stood still for me so i can do all my thinking and whatever. I de-stress myself at night,its like I'm reborn. Crazy huh? but i guess i got it from my mum.
The opening of school makes me shudder. I will have to wake up around 6 in the morning to take care of my stepdaughter and get her set up for school. I am very grouchy and touchy in the morning,i don't want to take out my grouchiness on my kids. That's not all, autumn is just lurking around the corner. and before we know it,winter is here..Winter and waking up early is surely a big test for me being a mom. I dread winter time where its freezing cold and i have to go out and stay with my stepdaughter and wait for her bus. That's going to be interesting,lol..
The only solution i see to this dilemmas is to start sleeping early at night and avoid taking naps in the afternoon with the baby. With my husbands help I'm sure i can manage it. It will just take a little getting use to.
So early morning worms be warned! the new early morning bird is coming right at you!!!

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